Mind over matter

I normally don’t mind Mondays, because I work weekends twice a month there are only on or off days. However, today is just a rubbish day and it happened to land on a Monday.
I already noticed my back being a little sore yesterday and thought it would sort itself out over night, like it does so many times.
Yes, you guessed right, it didn’t 😦
I woke up and felt right away that it had got worse over night.
I got up and went for a hot bath in the hope it would soothe things a bit but no such luck. Afterwards I sat on my bed and was a little lost as to what to do. I wanted to walk to the bus this morning and take the bus that stops about ten mins away from work so I could start walking a bit more. They say with sciatica and all those kind of things you should keep mobile as much as possible, but just standing up is a killer today, so walking any kind of distance really isn’t my idea of fun.
So I sat there, pondering about what to do. After all it would only cost me £3 in a taxi to get to the bus stop…
So I grabbed my stuff walked outside and I walked, slowly, probably looking rather ridiculous, clenching my back and quietly swearing every now and then, but I did it. It took me 20 mins to get there but I got there and I didn’t give in to my usual laziness.
So today is not such a bad day after all. 🙂


Working through my stash…

…and believe me it’s quite a big one!
The trouble is to decide what to finish first, so I have decided to approach this logically, which is so not like me, else I wouldn’t have the amount of yarn u do have.
Do you ever get this, you sort through it and look at some of the things you have bought and think: “what was I thinking?”
I had several moments like that today and I am now stuck with a pile of yarn that I have no ideas for. They will most likely end up being shoved into a plastic bag and kept for “later”.

As for my first stash busting project I have finally decided to continue this blanket that I have started… wait for it… Two years ago… for my youngest son(11). He is still using the blanket I have made him as a baby and I figured it was time for something a bit more grown up.


I had about 12 balls of Rico Basic Acrylic chunky to get through and now I am down to five and a half. It works up quite fast, but the rows do seem endless at times especially with the single crochet rows. I am hoping that I will have this done soon as my darling daughter now wants a new blanket too and they are both meant to be for Christmas. However, my daughter is being a typical 16 year old and would like a black and white one, which of course I don’t have lol.
So, must do more stash busting before I can do that.

Anyone got any ideas what to do with a bunch of acrylic dk yarn in rather yucky colours? :-/

Finding the right look.

Now I have been sat here all afternoon, making a twitter for my blog and even thinking of a YouTube channel and things are starting to take shape. However, I am not happy with the look of my blog. Being German I like things to be organised and efficient and easy to find. I don’t want anyone to have to search forever until they have found the right post or topic, because this blog is not just about losing weight, it’s going to be a Blog about me and the stuff i like to do etc..

I want it to look nice too, but I have to confess I can’t really find my way around this site yet, how to create different categories and looks etc. . This is something that really annoys me, because normally I figure these kind of things out pretty quickly. So I think I will spend the rest of my evening on YouTube watching tutorials lol Maybe I am getting old and that’s why I am struggling to do this? Hmmmm… Old, no I am not getting old, I refuse to, no, no, no! By tomorrow I will have a totally new and organised look for this Blog even if it takes all night.

PS.: Is it just me who finds it funny how the spell-checker on a blogging site tells me the word Blog is incorrect? Lol

Here I go…..Again!

Ok, so after starting my full time job in November and getting the ball rolling on sorting out various health issues that make my life difficult ( I have pernicious anaemia and am deficient in about every other vitamin and mineral my body needs), I have finally worked out a plan on how to get exercise and healthy eating squeezed into my 60 hour week. I have talked to my kids and told them that starting next month I will try and get a work out in before I go to work or after work, which will mean that I am home even less for five days a week, but I feel I really need to do this for myself and for my family.

I am tired of being unhappy with myself all the time, tired of looking back at pictures from years before and feeling ashamed of how I have let myself go over the last five years. Yes, I have had a lot on my plate with University, finding work afterwards, finally getting a diagnose of PA and then trying to get better (there were times where I couldn’t walk outside, because I would get the feeling that I am going to fall, due to my nervous system being so damaged), but enough is enough now. I am almost 40 (in November) and I need to get behind this NOW.

I weighed myself on Monday and the scales showed a shocking 124.5kg/274.5lbs!!! My back hurts, my knees are killing me and I just see a fat ugly blob when I look in the mirror. I have not just decided to get back to where I was, I want to get even better, better than I ever been before, simply just the best I can be when it comes to health and looks.

While I was writing this I received a text message regarding my referral to the orthopaedic surgeon, so hopefully my shoulders and harms are going to be fixed soon so I can work out properly again without being in constant pain. Yay!

Anyway, what’s my action plan? Like I have already mentioned before I will work out in some shape or form every day for half an hour and since Monday I have been avoiding carbs to a certain extent. No bread, no pasta, no rice! I love carbs, but I can already feel the difference in my guts and stomach, you simply don’t feel sluggish anymore. When I fancied something sweet ( I have a terrible sweet tooth) I had an Atkins bar and when I did fancy something bread like I had Ryvita. Other than that it was pretty much lean proteins and fruit and veg.

I am keeping this pretty hush, hush at the moment because I really don’t want anyone to know and I really don’t want anyway to watch me fall off the wagon either, which I am sure I will do plenty of times lol. So I really just have you guys out there to talk and moan to (and the kids of course) when needs be lol so follow me and say “Hi” and I will follow you back.


42.3?! OOOppppsss that’s a lot …