The Matter of the Mad Hatter

In one of my recent posts I have told you about how I have picked up new hobbies. One of them is drawing.

I have just done the odd hand and eye picture so far, but after watching the film Through the looking Glass I got inspired to do my first portrait. 

I just wanted to draw the Hatter so bad, as I thought I could practice a variety of skills, like drawing hair, blending and how to go about different areas of light and dark. 

This is the original picture which I am drawing from.

I am not quite finished yet, he still needs his jacket and his chin finishing off, and maybe a little background adding, but I thought I’d share my first real portrait with you. 

Please feel free to give some tips on how I could improve or where I went wrong, I still have so much to learn ๐Ÿ™‚ 


Cut the cord – My 61lbs weight loss so farย 

โ€‹I have always been a big girl and an even bigger comfort eater. Over the last ten years the weight just seriously kept creeping up and up and suddenly I found myself at 280lbs. 

It was a picture of me and my, now ex, boyfriend at the time (cutting the cord in more than just one way lol), which triggered my first small attempts at losing weight. He was a 6ft4 athletic guy and then there was me stood next to him 5ft7, and just looking massive.  I stared at the picture as we sat in the car and started crying. 

Me at 280lbs.
It was then that I decided to do something about it, so I started going to the gym and had a half hearted stab at eating better. I say half hearted in hindsight, as back then it was a case of eating well for most of the week and then pretty much spoiling my efforts by pulling into McDonald’s at the weekends.

Over the next few months I did lose a bit of weight, maybe 10lbs, but then me and my boyfriend split up and I went through a short phase of not caring.

At the new year I made the usual resolutions, but not changing much, until that one night I went to a gig of one of my favourite bands, Shinedown. I wanted pictures of me there, but the memory of the last picture of me still stung badly.

Then they played the song that pretty much changed it all. 
Cut the cord – By Shinedown 

And then I knew that it was exactly what I needed to do, cut the cord. Stop making my life and happiness revolve around food and people who don’t appreciate who I am and what I am about, and therefore drag me down. 
I started to eat low carb again for about 80% of the time, because hey, I love food and there was no way I would go without certain things. I can easily skip bread, rice and pasta these days, but potatoes, I love potatoes! So maybe once a month I’d have those or I’d have the odd pizza. On those days I just do some extra cardio at the gym to level it out or I simply accepted the tiny bit of weight gain and got on with it. But it wasn’t really down to the diet change that made all the difference, it was the change in my head, that little switch that got flicked that let me know, yes, I can do this and I will do this! Once that thought was in place it was all so much easier.

And here I am, nine months down the line…

Not too sure if this was January or earlier, but yeah you get the idea.

I still have a long way to go, but things are definitely going in the right direction.

Cheekbones ๐Ÿ™‚ 

I think my mental transformation still needs a lot of work, because I still catch myself now and then wasting energy on people who really don’t deserve it, but I am definitely setting more goals for myself and for most of the time really don’t care what other people think of how I live my life, because it’s my life and it’s a good one!

Yes, I am still alive!

Yes, I know I have done it again! Life just has the horrible habit of happening. I am sorry! No, I seriously am. And even more grateful that you are all still around. 

The last few months have been challenging, to say the least. I was not really myself for a very long time, come to think of it. I used to be the most creative and knowledge thirsty person ever and all that slowly disappeared over the last couple of years. Amazing, what hanging with the wrong people can do to you.

Luckily, this issue has now been rectified and I am back hanging with the people who bring out the best in me. 

However, a few things have changed in the Renton residence. There is nomore spinning wheel. I sold it to fund my trip to the states and to be honest, I don’t think I was too good at spinning anyway. I am still knitting and crocheting like a mad woman so don’t worry, this will not be a complete topic change on the blog, but I do want to make a few changes. 

First of all, I have two brand spanking new hobbies. I know am learning how to sew and I have discovered that my drawing skills are not as bad as I thought they were,  so I will be adding a sewing and a drawing category in place for a spinning one. 

Secondly, I have lost a bit of weight. Ok, I have lost quite a bit of weight, 4 stone to be exact. For my American friends, that’s 61.7 lbs or 28 kg. 

So, I would like to write more about healthy eating and the odd workout or reviews, what do you guys think about that? Is it something you would be interested in or should I keep it in a separate blog? Let me know ๐Ÿ™‚